Why can\'t I get you out of me head?
Why must this torture continue, to wake up I dread.
Because though you aren\'t in front of me, I see you vividly
and my thoughts are consumed by you completely.
Randomly triggered by my surroundings, it\'s very draining.
I feel so hopeless like this won\'t end, it\'s saddening.
When I hear a loud noise, a song, someone comes near me too fast
Certain foods, my dreams, and of course the past.
I want to be rid of you, its like im encased being squeezed and Icant get free.
And i beg myself, for my brain to hear my plea.
\"Please not again i don\'t want to remember.
It scares me, hurts, and makes my strength timber.\"
Without my strength I have intrusive thoughts, the ones where I think I can bleed you out.
It frustrates me and makes me want to shout.
\"I CAN\'T HAVE ANOTHER SCAR THAT WILL REMIND ME OF YOU!\"
So I sit, staring at nothing, because i know it\'s true.
That I just need to clean my wounds.
And eventually there will be a day my brain won\'t think of you.