sylviasearcher

Disillusionment

I’m lost losing left
There’s a fog fixing set
A buzz in my brain
Keeps mispronouncing my name

I want you to hold me
I need you to see
Release my reflection
Until my perfection is free

I’m ambivalence raging
As my wanting is fading
There’s a drum in my bones
Braying sweet songs of alone

I wanted to exist
I need to resist
Release my reflection
Until my perfection is free

I’m tired of trying
And slowly I’m dying
A shiver stabs at my spine
To spell out what’s not mine

I wanted to love
I needed to lose
Reject my reflection
Until I’m not what you choose

I wanted to love
I was destined to lose
Illusion confusion
Same face, old news