b-LAH-que

Sunshineburn

Step into the sunshine

Out from my darkest hall

Beauty I\'ve watched through windows

Let me be amongst it all

 

Let my life be changed

My ways have taken a turn

In sunshine for which I\'ve lusted

My skin, unfamiliar, burns

 

Pale in all this brightness

Illuminated by beaming rays

No hope of blending in

A signal to all I\'m new to these ways

 

Tells all the people who see me

I\'ve stayed amongst the shade

My face, burning red, signals them \"STOP\"

Parents tell children to stay away

 

A price I pay for hiding

Where anything goes, unseen

Out in new openness, glowing, burning,

Peeling, everywhere I\'m a scene

 

It\'s almost as if to show me

Being right as I possibly can

Simply can\'t change the wrongs of my past

Despite me, for them I am damned

 

I know some day I\'ll be healed

Adjust to a healthy new tone

Pick off my dead skin, be amongst new friends

And welcome the warmth that once left me alone

 

But just as I\'m getting comfy

Dark spots start to show on my skin

To serve as reminders my sunshine remembers

The guilt of my former sin

 

I\'ve begun a new journey toward virtue

I\'ve come and must still go so far

But to biopsy every last trace of my darkness

Still leaves it\'s remnant scar