I have to drink myself to
where i can not think
so you wont cross my mind
while im listen to the rain
behind my fake smile to all my
family and friends
there is my wounded soul
that may never ease from pain
you wrecked who i used to be
this sweet loving heart
who wanted to just be happy
but you made me fall apart
you turned off my shining lights
and put me in the dark
my old self might come back
but i wont ever know not until
my revenge is on your own pathetic soul
and i feel if i gain back full control
of who i used to be
before you forced all this evil into me
that my light will come back on
and all the fright you cause me
will vanish out of me
and make you suffer
for all internally