I feel depressed
I need deep rest
don\'t know how to function in society
and my mind keeps lying to me
I numb myself with opiates
to cope with my anxiety
there\'s a sickness running through me
and unjustifiably
I hurt others with it
I\'m not sure if they question my sanity
don\'t wear my pain as a badge
because I don\'t want any pity
this pain isn\'t an aesthetic
this pain isn\'t pretty
this pain is wild
like fire engulfing a forest
or fog hugging a desolate city
I need a time out
I want to run into a forest to scream and shout
I want to bury my head in a bed of flowers
I don\'t want to hear a sound
I need a hug
I need to feel loved
I love myself
and for how far I\'ve come I feel proud
for now, I\'m earthbound
I walk through shadows, silhouettes and crowds
my mind is loud
this life is profound
I don\'t know what else to say
so I\'m calling it a day
pray all feeling this way stay safe
everything\'s gonna be okay