There is that vibration in our voice, a frequency of \"I will not be ignored\"
It shakes you right down to the core, sadly mine is still sore
I got this first message, 15 years ago with my son
He did not just scream, he would go through night terrors too
Little did I know it was actually my energy reflected
I took my lesson and saw the information was free
The lectures and books I never thought I\'d read
To become a behaviourist and see dogs know the score
I\'m more messed up but I\'m honest to my core
I don\'t loss it, unless scared or feel I\'m being cornered
I still unable to shake the history of my bodys early warning
I never knew my baby\'s cry for food or a hug would keep triggering my scaring
As I try not to pass on the knowing and unknowingly cycle of childhood traumas
I am truly grateful to be tested again in this new partnership
As my last attempt at marriage gave me two beautiful kids
I was to damaged for a husband & wife to keep growth
I have made it clear this time around, my issue are open and I don\'t mess about
Each time I lose the plot, we both try understand
I\'m having the same melt down, and really don\'t want to scream
I only think I can do it better alone, because my programming tells me
I think love is not having control, but yet knowing you are still responsible
Everything just needs time, space then good food and a hug
Life is only comforting, as we wish to make it ourselves
Even in the luxury of blessing, we can be suffering as well
At the beginning and the end, we all need that help