My eyes flutter
Open and shut
The dim street lights coming through the bedroom blinds
I can only make out simple silhouettes
What time is it? Is it still night or early morning?
Reaching for my phone I feel the frigid air hit my arms
I see the goose bumps form right before my eyes and my hairs rise
The bright white light from my phone makes me squint but I can make out the time
3:45 AM
Trying to recall the reason behind me being woken up from my slumber
Suddenly I feel discomfort in my belly
Pain?
No
Cramps?
Not quite
It\'s more like pressure
Yes exactly
Ignoring it I return to warm sheets and attempt to sleep
For some reason I just can\'t fall completely asleep
The pressure is just enough to keep me up
Time goes by and it starts to get stronger
Tossing and turning
Sitting up and laying back down
To my surprise I don\'t wake up the beast
Again I check the time and it\'s nearly 7:30AM
At last the beast awakens
\"Are you okay?\"
I give a reassuring nod and explain my dilemma
With a quick call to the warden and a trusty little stopwatch
We head over to grandmas house
By that time pressure is definitely pain
About every two minutes my eyes were closed shut
Palms sweaty
The car ride to the hospital was scary to say the least
I\'ve read so many negative, nauseating stories
We arrive only to get sent home!
Imagine that
Quick pill down the throat , a shot in the butt and off we go
Thankfully that shot gave me the best sleep of my life
Waking up nearly six hours later
The pain came back with a vengeance and what felt like tongs latched on to my insides
Twisting and twisting
Luckily this heaven sent angel ran me a lovely bath
Soothing the pain quite well
I never wanted to leave
But, the time came and back to the hospital we went
I was checked in faster than I could even think at that point
Before I knew it I was screaming with pain
Whole body stiff
In my world this lasted days but in reality it was many long hours
I clearly knew giving up wasn\'t an option but boy did I want to
Then,
After a quick pinch and a lot of tape
oxygen filled my lungs
Peace filled the room and I slept like a baby
When I woke up it was go time
I pushed myself to limits so far beyond me
Replaying all the risks that could happen if I didn\'t do this right now
There was no time to cry and complain anymore
\"That\'s it! Keep going you\'re doing great!\"
All of a sudden the room is silent
I hear only my heart beat
I get handed this tiny
warm
Gem.
Wrapped in a somewhat scratchy oddly colored sorry excuse of a blanket
Even your cries are muffled
I\'ve waited so long to hear you and I still can\'t
My eyes refuse to look at anything else even acknowledge anybody else in this room
It\'s all about you
As your cries start to fill my ears and my eyes with tears
The blurred commotion around us starts to appear
\"She\'s so beautiful.\"
Is all I manage to get out