I thought things would change
We could change
Alone in my room I cry
Tears of wine staining my sheets blood red
No one would notice
Sometimes I wish I was different
Trapped in my body
Escape doors bolted with locks
The key is addiction
The answer is death
The wind whistles
And shakes the bricks
My bones twitch and my heart slows
As eyes droop sorrows excite
My brain is drowning and it\'s running out of time
Lost in a forest of thoughts
The smoke covers the leaves
I pretend I don\'t see through
But they are standing there
I have to leave
Souls is frozen
I go out in the night
No fear left
In the knife on the floor
I see my reflection
A shell of what I once called me
Worn and lost
Streams of mascara tattooed on my cheeks
I can hear the bottle rattle
The sound rings in my ears
My brain buzzes like electricity
As I try to separate nightmares from reality
No luck
I always had her smile
But that too is now gone and forgotten
Burned to a powder
Breathed in to remember what happiness is
I feel my lungs stop
My red stained jumper lies heavy on my bruised skeleton
Dragging myself back home
I hear an infants cry
It echoes through my empty veins
And brings envy to my eyes
Tired and cold I cripple
As my eyes roll back
I feel light slipping away
Escape at last
The door opens and inside I crawl
And join the lifeless pile of bodies on the floor.