Where was the card
The one to tell you everything was okay?
Where was the spirit
The one to tell you that it was about to be over.
The urges
The fight
it\'s hard to handle anymore
I tried and tried
The effort is there but obviously sore.
The dreams at night
The dreams I fight
The dreams that keep me up
The ones that say that always will mean never.
The dreams that show me what I feel
I try and kick and cry
It\'s no use to fight.
I lived my life
I fought through the worst
I always get sucked back into my old life that ruins
Here, try this, it\'s something new
Oh, I only wish I knew that it was no use.
I wished to know who really watches
I am unable to speak
It all happened
I got what I wanted
But was it really worth it?
The joy didn\'t last long.
Before I knew it, the cycle came about again
while my head spins in circles
I wonder when will it end.
Why must he sit and watch from the outside?
Can he no longer hear me?
So many tears are shed
and he isn\'t there to dry me.
Did he no longer want me anymore
or have I given up on him?
Whatever it seems to be,
I don\'t care.