I\'m Autistic
Only diagnosed recantly
Masked everything for 35 years
Hard to accept
Hard To understand
Family,Friends
expect me to continue
As I did before
I\'m trying too but its a struggle
Dont like loud,suddan noises
Like routine,like to be
within my comfort zone
Family says always work
I can\'t do that anymore
Its hard I need time out, a space
I need time for me.
Some family and friends
Don\'t seem to understand
I know I need to earn money to live
I\'m doing that
But what I\'m doing is enough
Can\'t do more
Some people expect me to do more
But its a struggle for me.
Some people are not understanding me
They think, I should be a normal 36 year old
Have a relationship, get married, have children, but thats not me.
Too much pressure on me being someone Im not and will not ever be.
You look at me and think Im normal
But I\'m not, I have a invisable disablity
I have autism. I can only do so much.
The struggle is there, the struggle is real.
I always do the best I can
I can\'t Please everyone
I\'m doing the best I can for me
I\'ve got to put myself before others.
I\'ve got autism the struggle is
real, the struggle is there.