I still search for you, yet I know where you are
I can not get to you
You’re still so close to me
yet unbelievably so far
I search the clouds
I search the ocean
I search through trees and crowds
I search the stars
I search the moon
Praying you’re okay up there
And that being with you again will feel like it’s soon
As time has passed missing you has become another part of me
Engraved deeper in my heart
Another part of me died that day
I never would of been ready for us to part
I still long for you
Your touch, your kiss
I long for our conversations that went on through till morning that i desperately miss
I long to fall asleep hand in hand again
I long to joke with my love,
my best friend
I long to gaze in your beautiful eyes and
Touch your beautiful face
Just to hear your voice would be my earthly heavenly grace
I wake up, breathe and miss you and that continues every day
Because my heart belongs to you and I will cry for you always
No matter what they say
Until we are back together
Where my soul can be happy
finally again but for forever
The only way to carry on is living not entirely and truly myself, separating the depths of my soul, the tragic pain and my infinite devoted love for you
and placing it on a shelf
So that’s what I do but
I visit that shelf
Whenever I need too
Which is often throughout the day
I still wear your jumper and inhale your scent as I weep whenever I lay
I would of giving anything to god
To make sure that you stayed
I will stay strong
Carry on this human life even tho it feels so wrong
And when I’m alone I will still close my eyes and be with you, a beautiful day dream that you’ll do too.