Clara

Chosen Memories

Memories are choices, yes?

\'Cos I can\'t seem to shake the sound he made upon my chest

Yet, promises, vows or that important test

No, I can\'t contain that, I guess.

 

But, damn, the smell of oil against his collar

Or the way he breathes me in

The look in his eye when he watches me... Oh yes, they play like a movie for me 

Sold out and on repeat, no doubt. 

 

Please understand, with him I can focus on every small detail 

I could paint you the perfect picture! 

He\'s not like anyone I\'ve ever met before 

Think of the greatest person who makes you feel complete

And then imagine... He\'s not yours to keep. 

 

You see, those memories are my only proof of a year spent, best forgotten 

But my mind and treacherous heart play our love on a continuous deceitful loop

So much so, he\'s become my Holy Grail or indeed, my Fountain of Youth. 

 

I must admit, I don\'t fight this or try to redirect 

Yes, I have chosen his sequels over what\'s best

Like living my life with integrity, honour and virtue.. 

So please, leave me to rest 

I must tender these memories

I must not forget!