as i am leaving my childhood
all the high school classes
all the scrapped knees on the sidewalks
and friends lost over the years
i realize that growing up is all i\'ve ever wanted
and yet, now i do not want it
i watch my happiness leave me, 4 years ago today
i watch my friend come and go
because of personal growth
i watch my brother and sister grow up happy
she will be in high school next year
him in middle school
and they are happy with those changes
and that\'s all i ever wanted
i watch as my mom graduates from college
as my step dad goes back to college
as everyone around me is applying to college
and i am just here
with no idea as to what i am going to do with my life
i just want to belong
it\'s all i ever wanted
i wanted to be a cheerleader
i wanted to be an all AP student
i wanted to be that effortlessly good student
i wanted people to be proud of me
but all i ever wanted
was to be proud of myself
i sit here tonight
and think of
all i\'ve ever wanted