queer-with-a-pen

prettier on paper

unrequited love is all well

and good in songs

written out as a poem

a sonnet

a ballad

but the reality hurts

 

the only heart i’ve ever

broken is my own

which, i guess that’s not

such a bad track-record

 

and what kind of poet

a wanna-be bard

would i be if i didn’t

think or speak with my mind

but with my heart

my love?

 

but i have grown tired

of licking my wounds

always hoping for hands

that are more steady than my own

to take this hurt from me

 

and i am so full of love

yours for the taking, always

i’d give you my heart if i could

better with a knife than with blood

but that’s a risk i’m willing to take

 

i ache, i ache, and i ache

not entirely knowing what for

maybe out of longing

something akin to wanting?

an answer only i can give

 

but i still don’t know

what the question could be

and so words die on my tongue

afraid of smothering you under

the weight of whatever

this is