what kind of love
do i think i deserve?
a thing that yields poems
sweet platitudes and flowery words
but no romance
a loveless and lonely
kind of something?
and sure, love can be elating
wouldn’t be such a popular topic
of poems and songs and ballads
if it weren’t
but an unforgiving love
can be such a hollow feeling
like having my chest opened
and emptied
and sewn up again
and i know what that’s really like, too
but this kind of love is more numbing
than cut nerve endings
and the scars that that leaves
glad to have never been in love
since there are only so many ways
to say that you’ve made me cry
and make it sound appealing
but a bard with a broken heart
is something no one wants to see
a broken heart yields no coin
but my heart is weak
my heart is wanting
and i am helpless
in the face of how i feel
how i ache
how i yearn
for you
singing your praises
like any good bard would do
even though you’ve never liked poetry
and isn’t that just my luck,
my love?