Sometimes I wish my parents were happy and they stayed together
My dad wants me to never forget his pain and how it hit
He feels that time was lost
If it’s any consolation I know who daddy is
Daddy’s baby knows that he loves his kids
Sometimes I wish my mama saw what I see
There are no words for the strength that I witness
There is not a price for the love I have been given
Mommy had so many fears but smelt fearless
Mommy fought for her babies, love is her most life threatening illness
Sometimes I wish I was more outgoing when I was in school
I waited for the last minute to be socially involved
My biggest issue was the hatred I had in my heart
I hated the facades that were so meaningless
Actually looking back I’m glad I stayed in my corner
Sometimes I wish I could find my way back to that corner and focus on my art
Sometimes I wish I didn’t sacrafrice my desires and put others higher
Like that one time I stayed with a boy who made me miserable just because he took a bullet to the ass
Or the countless friendships that just ended up with a dagger to my back
There were a few times I let this get the best of me
But I still love to love and I’ll leave those memories in the past
Because whats yet to come is my greatest present you see.
Sometimes I wish my brother never left me
I was his timid shadow
He always pushed me to do my best
I’m a little lost without him sometimes but he had to move on to what was next
Peace doesn’t always remain life brings changes things can never stay the same
Sometimes I wish I did more for Simeon
I have to realize I did everything I could
The psyche is a delicate place
This is one I’ll never take off my list
My friend I wish you were still here
He took all my secrets to the grave
Every thought of you makes my heart cave
I’ve been told I’m a hard shell to crack
that’s not true
Just like you, I have demons scratching at my back
I’ll do anything to avoid the exposure of my deepening sadness
Sometimes I wish I didn’t know the things that I’ve discovered year by year
Sometimes I wish I could rid all my fears
A desire or hope for something that is not easily attainable
Wishes are there to waste my time
Lost in my head I’m losing my mind
Wishes take over my body like a paralyzing drug
My wishes allow me to reconnect to the lost child that still lives in my head
I have troubles putting that child to bed