Maybe it’s because he gives me the same loving look when he sees me working on my computer that he does when we have stopped loving each other with our skin
Maybe it is because it took us 3 years, a boyfriend, and a few dozen flings for me to let him find his way back into my heart
I can’t imagine the look on his face when I told him over text that I couldn’t find a better match for my puzzle piece than him
That for some reason I can’t replace him in my mind
Trust me I tried
I must have flirted with everyone minus my own flesh and blood to get him out of my mind
Maybe it is because when my fortune was read and they spoke of my soul mate all I can think about is long nights messaging him
I think about where my life will go and I can’t imagine it without taking his input so I know where we will both go together
You see he makes it so I can’t imagine why I gave up on humanity cause he is here
He is okay with my random ramblings while we are at our most vulnerable
He is okay that sleeping together is more intimate to me than having sex
Maybe it is the way I know he thinks my body is a temple and he needs to pray to every morning
That my problems are his because I am so fired up about it
Maybe It is because I can’t stand up for myself without him behind me knowing he will have my back
He likes it when I yell at the TV, but he hates movies being interrupted
Maybe it is because he drives everywhere because he knows that driving makes me panic even though I haven’t told him
Maybe it’s because when I told him how many people used to shatter this house I built or didn’t even let me build the foundation he didn’t see just the crazy, he saw me
Maybe it is just because he stayed this long and I can’t not