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a love like crashing waves

stinging and salty spray

off the bow of a weather beaten ship

let alone the freezing shock

of ocean waves

has not touched my skin

in six long years

 

and i am ready, my love

thick ropes of scars

begging to be touched by

the cold of the open ocean

 

i wonder if all that

clear blue water

hiding so much below the tide

has missed me, too

 

i am a parched man

laying in the middle of the desert

thinking of her lips on mine

my face in her neck

her sharp sharks teeth leaving

pin-pricks in my shoulder blades

 

and i know i have not loved

a man, nor a woman

like i have loved the sea

knowing that great uncaged

beast runs through my veins

always welcome and wanting

 

my love, never meant to be tamed

fills a void in me

right below my rib cage

packed with salty kelp and sand

if the infection doesn’t kill me

then the longing surely will 

 

for the sea

she knows what i desire

and it sounds something

like please

 

something like home

something like you

something like you you you