A certain, unspeakable sadness ripples like music
Like tears, like honey through my body, an echo lost in a cave
With no end or light in sight, it remains like a ghost
Ribbons of blueness in my broken heart
The family\'s been torn apart
Since then, I\'ve went with the wolves
Since then, I\'ve poured salt on the wound
Since then, I\'ve cut my nose off to spike my face
Since then, I shot myself in the foot
At the end of the forest
Liquid sunshine sunk into me
In the afterglow
Each tolerable pain lasts five minutes longer
Than the last pain that came before
I\'m crouched over on the floor
My insides are dancing around like smoke
I caught a glimpse of my shadow in some Martello tower
The ocean clenched its fist
It was a bright red night alright
The moment lasted longer than the orgasm before
The moment was the ocean washing ashore
Delighting in pure sin
I\'ve fucked, fucked to get far
I fucked all the way to Tampa
Fucked to get to Tampa
Been fucked over
Paranoia has the upper hand
I fell for Tampa counterfeit shit
Was left speechless by the eclipse
Pretty nimbus, pretty fearless
Paranoia has the upper hand
The relationship is ruined
I\'ve fallen out with good friends
On impulsive excursions, explicitly living
So numb I can\'t feel
I hide in the shallow part of my brain
Responding to important voices which bellow
I gain momentum then fall like a domino
Like a defined jaw dropping
Like a star falling from the sky
Bursting into unalloyed pink veins
I made it through the day
The fastest in the race, in a demented state
Driven mad by the sweet tooth ache
I can\'t explain it
Can\'t explain the politics
I can\'t explain the bondage
The unhealthy ways, the illegal activities
The darkness is my immortal enemy
Breathing and full of life
Silence takes me to another time
To the gold rush in high season
When everything was fine
With my seagull mind
Conversations were flowing like beach waters
Hardcore pleasure in the cock
I was Tampa, alone with my thoughts
Counting sheep in my sleep
It\'s just me and myself
Myself and I.