I don\'t understand who I am
The feeling is killing me
I come alive in sober moments of clarity
Wearing my cool, blue sunglasses
Like a stylish man in Cincinnati
I caught the charter flight
I followed the arc, my body bent
I dived headfirst into the cesspool
Without thinking
I carried myself with a concerned expression
I didn\'t miss anything
The apparitions were taking spoonfuls of medicine
It\'s the most important ingredient
A serious madness is growing like an ache
As long as a row of houses
The bad memories embedded in my brain
Are turning into sorry excuses
Fishes caught and doomed in the dragnet
Fading like the helpless cries of a child
I\'ve done what I needed to do
Done the errands, washed my hands
Still can\'t cut ties with my strange fixations
I\'m enamoured with simple things
Serotonin, the glitz of it, the stiff paperwork
Sat mute like a car parked by a wet boulevard
For a split second
I almost forgot I had any insecurities
It was a cathartic release
There was nothing much to celebrate
The fat rainclouds burst open
It was like a light bulb smashing
A butterfly breaking free
The rain showered down on me
The rain showered down on me
Like tears rolling down my cheek
The rain showered down on me
The rain showered down on me
I was unstuck from the seesaw called life
The beautiful gondola ride
I was unwinding like the roads leading to nowhere
Breathing in the stony air
As the artless winds performed like a babel
In the lonely night, in the lonely night
I was like a tortoiseshell
Minding my business, being honest
In the ever-expanding and vast emptiness
With doves cooing by plush oranges
I can\'t simply turn off my suicidal thoughts
Macabre gibberish
I\'ve started, now I\'ll finish
I come alive in sober moments of clarity
Wearing my cool, blue sunglasses
The rain showered down on me
Like tears rolling down my cheek
In the ever-expanding and vast emptiness
With doves cooing by plush oranges.