Who knew that it would still be so hard on me to grieve,
Especially after a year it\'s odd to fathom or believe.
Yes, a year this month, losing a Husband and my Mother,
The pain that I feel deep down, wondering does another?
Feel the aching that I have in the pit of my Soul,
Burning me so bad, like hot embers or piece of coal.
I find myself thinking and reliving of the past,
Hoping all the memories I have inside will last.
Wishing them back, is selfish and simply cannot be,
Yet I can\'t stop and my thoughts are destroying me.
I know I must cease, as life does move on,
Put things in perspective and, realize they\'re gone.
The grief that I am feeling, didn\'t just suddenly start,
Yet it grips me so badly, and is tearing at my heart.
I know my heart will heal as the time passes me by,
And, as I\'m thinking about them, tears will fill my eye.
I must face the mirror, and tell him not to cry,
For the final words I said, were not the last goodbye.
I must end these rambling thoughts going through my mind,
Because one thing I know, is to myself I must be kind.
When you lose someone you love, grieving you must do,
It\'s just one of those things in life, everyone goes through!