Endless
Heavy goads me towards release
Like blood on wall might bring me peace
My blood
Deep red
Dirty
Free?
Frenzy screwed into my synapse
Seeking suffering to cremate the relapse
My suffering
Hidden deep
Immaculate
Costly?
Greys and blacks and fogs and smoke
Twist and bend and hold and choke
My neck
Pale and weak
Perfect
Priceless?
Nothing, nowhere, never was
Fix my face of all its flaws
My image
Disgusting
Desperate
Worthless
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Learn
I want to drink from your fountain of feeling
Drunk on serenity, and unafraid of kneeling
Being. All I am. And all I am not
Endless but ending and forever unforgot
I want to leave a scratch on your surface
Penetrate your armour, till you whisper I’m worth it
Of being. All I am not. And all that I am
Fighting but accepting as you tear up my plan
Needy, I linger, eager to learn
I see in your chest what I want to discern
A peculiar pebble you place in your palm
Its edges are rough but it enchants like a charm
I want you to take me and make me your best student
To reach me and teach me the art exuberance
Becoming. All that I ever needed to be
Finally enough. Make me yours. Set me free