The pain spreads… festers and grows.
A weed within this body,
whose roots have possessed my veins,
brokenness, scars and regret follow its wake
Heals over head
Knees deep within a mess
Consumed and overwhelmed
Drip
Drip
Drip
Steadily seeping, searching deeper..
drowning my soul one drop at a time.
Within this chest it’s wrapped my ribs
entangling my heart with a suffocating grip
Shut
Tight
Shut
Tighter
Sealing off any emotions, shutting out love
nothing can enter nothing goes out
entombed within myself
Help isn’t coming, help won’t be called
Stubborn and young thinks he can do it alone
Alone is fine for stubborn and young
No one to disappoint or be disappointed by
No one to burden with dark thoughts late at night
But more importantly no one to hurt…
If he gave up the fight
Diving
Deep
Deeper
Darkness
Descends
The demons inside have eaten their fill
Tearing and clawing at internal walls
Attempting escape from a human cage
Longing for freedom, beginning to crawl out
With closed eyes I dive into my mind
In search for the door
Break the key in the lock
and leave a part of me shut behind
in a feeble attempt to cage the beasts inside
With opened eyes
Face to face with a stranger in a mirror
Realizing I locked everything I recognize away
And those demons got out anyways
Thump
Thump Thump
Thump
Thump Thump
Thump
Thumping away
Heart screaming in sensitive ears
My only company
Are the monsters I create
Moonlight dancing on the curtain
Blood shot eyes.. wide awake
Rattle and shake
A glass of water
A deep breath
The monsters are gone
So is the pain
And the room starts to
F
A
D
E....