I used to like cold showers
After a long day at work
Or a hot day in the sun
But lately it feels too cold
I feel almost empty
So I turn the water up
And even higher still
Until I feel the steam and the sting
The water feels almost burning
Yet it doesn\'t feel like enough
I turn it all the way over
Then I sit on the floor and wait
While the water burns
My skin red
The steam clearing my nose
I sit there
Awaiting some sweet relief
Yet all I feel is the emptiness
I try to cry but nothing comes out
There\'s nothing I can do anymore
I miss the feeling of the cold
Wishing I could go back in time
Back when the cold was relaxing
When I was called the ice princess
When everyone would wonder how I did it
Barefoot in the snow
But I haven\'t been her in a long time
The hot water only hurts me more
I turn the handle
More and more to the opposite side
I feel the cold pierce my skin
It almost feels painful
Yet not as painful as my mind
I let the cold water flow
My body starts to feel numb
The handle turns more
Suddenly there is no more water
I stand there alone
Naked
Disappointed
My mind continues to wonder
Yet there\'s no time to ponder
I grab my towel and leave the room
My expression blank
My mind full
I used to like cold showers