Living Dead Girl

In The End

turned away

abandoned

forgotten about,       and buried 

        with intention

I never needed...to be special

never needed, to stand out from the rest

but I\'m proving to be

so special...yes, it\'s true 

         I am invisible

unseen, unheard, unloved

         disrespect

         minimize

         trivialize

once queen of her own life

now a slave, in someone else\'s reality 

I am just not right...for this world

my happiness denied 

the more I try...god...the more I try...

I\'m tired of battling this demon for my soul

          clutching and clawing

toll after toll after toll

bleed me dry, decades of decaying 

until I\'ve reached this moment...ALONE...this moment in 

          My Time

of absolute and pure sadness

          loneliness

          confusion

          wondering...

Is this...twilight zone flipping logic, 

all in the name of my isolation?

just need one companion

         So I Won\'t Quit

No giving in, though I know

the more I pursue, the more I spar...

the more punches and blows are thrown my way

          Reigns over my identity

but i won\'t back down, 

so on the day that I die

          it will not matter

in my head are these devils,

winning all the time...

with their insidious truths, lies, and manipulations

How could I possibly defend? 

when all in the end...

i am nothing if not inconsequential.