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old crow grog

my first introduction to piracy

as a young lad

was that my father drank grog

 

one shot of old crow

a couple more splashes 

of lukewarm tap water

 

always on the rocks

swirled around once

and downed in a single swallow

 

i wonder if he drank

when i wasn’t around

but didn’t know how to ask

 

and really, how do you

ask your father if you’re the

reason he drinks?

 

and i haven’t seen

or heard from my father

since i was 18

 

but i know he stopped drinking

when i was 7

and i wonder who it was for

 

selfishly, of course

i’d like to think it was for me

but i know better now 

 

and it may not be his fault he didn’t

know how to be a proper father

but it hurts just the same