there\'s absolutely no need to write
these days -
perhaps if i were much much
younger and idealistic -
what love... what oh what woe...
could have could be (etc.) -
today i found myself in love
with england for: however many
a time...
the rolling hills cliche -
but i was alone: yet i was legion...
i was no anglo-saxon
with an army...
i strolled the countryside and
for this moment of certainty:
i was truly allowed to
hold firmness of aloofness -
beside the rabbit i crouched
beside two meters away...
a wild thing i was almost eager
to pick it up:
was the rabbit blind?
it\'s beyond questionably unfathomable...
well... there was that fox
that decided to come to soup kitchen
in my back garden
for nearing two months:
at a time when i desired
a dog... because: cats don\'t really
eat leftovers... fussy eaters...
no gluttonous slobs among,
them...
my new earned pleasure:
to walk is better than to talk...
yet even i found myself talking
to the wind:
verbatim:
imagine! bewildering that such places
still exist!
even if for an hour...
later i found out that this was
historical ground i was treading...
related to henry VIII and edward
the confessor -
teasing passing through
a village havering-atte-bower...
i didn\'t see a human face for hours
and hours... i did see birds-of-prey,
i saw i noted...
i didn\'t bring a pen and paper...
i was so entangled...
i was so freely there...
i was so... freely there...
unlike where i am now:
\"here\" attached to an extension
of thinking...
come to think of it... i was so pristinely alone
that if i were asked anything
outside the realm
of casual formality: if i were to be implored
to bid good day or a hello...
i\'d straighten out a fucking
banana and call it: the staff of moses
if i had to deal with this bogus societal-
never on a street am i ever
asked for a hello...
why do people find it necessary
to bid these shitty hello impromptus
when facing the base for all dreams...
i never liked talking during
sex... i never like disturbing
the language of the fields and the teasing
moors and the chimes of branches
with anything that isn\'t jokingly
spontaneous:
like today: imagine... such places do
exist... where one can truly spend a worth
of an hour or so alone...
with the birds of prey flying
above... with horses grazing...
with a rabbit: i presumed blind...
it\'s most decidedly unnecessary for me
to write this: but i can\'t allow
a good glug of kosher malt to waste...
if i\'m drinking i\'ll have to find myself
writing...
such that i need to restress a fondness
for this equipment:
a pair of feet...
no need to run... if i can catch up
with noon and make it home
come sunset...
i will most certainly not prescribe myself
to live under the cooking instructions
of a chicken sold by a supermarket...
1h40... 1 hour and forty minutes?
to cook a large chicken?
like all women are the best cooks
and the chicken breasts need
to be dry as a brittle (trans-grammarism)...
i wasn\'t listening...
shove enough thyme / garlic infused butter
under the skin and give it a maximum
of 55 minutes...
mismatching my rooster albert bartlett
tatties... i was hoping for a synchronised
swan lake esque event concerning
the oven enterprise...
bad luck moi...
a thermometer is so key... to eating
a pleasure roast of chicken...
i\'ll understand pasta undercooked...
teasing al dente: but over-cook it...
and serve up mush of melting glue:
kept together by a \"miracle\"...
same with chicken...
oh god... over-cooking or undercooking
meat is... i will dare to say...
never mind... 165°F for chicken meat...
i can\'t eat chewing gum made from
chaw-chaw-chaw barbarous chew...
welcome back to civilisation:
lost wanderer...
i honestly don\'t think i needed to write
this: that i didn\'t...
but i did... i hope i can be excused
with \"keeping my shit together\"...
i\'m not a fan of drinking in front of
the mirror...
or putting my hand in a hot bucket
of water...
why does drinking supposedly
encourage commerady...
why is drinking supposed to be this:
social event...
drinking alone is bad...
walking alone is doubly bad...
well fuck yeah! let\'s have us
a bollock-wanking of a marathon!
a drinking orgy to boot!
drinking alone is all that is \"leftover\"...
if it weren\'t for the add chance
of utilising a plumber...
once in a blue moon scenario:
since the previous generations
invested so much in the plumbing...
it\'s not a question would i be better of...
i\'d be: off of now...
in this currency conundrum of...
impersonal justifications...
a hybrid anonymous butcher...
or some... variation and \"other\"...
give me the sky! the wind! the fields!
and the time necessary to not encounter
some fucking baseline pedestrian
who... upon venturing upon holy ground...
public footpath nonetheless...
seeing all this nature has to...
pass me by with an invitation for
a hello hallow how\'do\'you\'do...
weird:
if i walked down the street and
all that pleasing concrete was in the way...
would i get the same \"invitation\"...
then why, bother, my, silence...
when i\'m standing on grass... looking
at trees?!
unfamiliar territory i am sure...
i don\'t need assurances of teasing poker...
get on your fucking bus and leave us
to its...
it\'s hardly an \"english\" thing...
is just happens to be a human bollocking
working up to a crescendo that\'s only
now apparent: who dou \'illed with
\'reats again\'st the theat\'re?
the rabbit! the rabbit! the rabbit!
was the rabbit blind?
i didn\'t sneak up on it...
hello words: congest my mind allow
the voyeurs in...
i won\'t be here long...
that space between
the ears and the eyes... i suppose the eyes...
like candy-outgrowths...
bulging i pretended to blink
they were still intact...
a camouflage... this close to a wild
\"thing\" you\'d find me expressing
details of moth wings...
that there\'s a an M25... that there\'s an A406...
and there\'s the great...
walk-along to fuck off alone
work-around for feet primo...
i think it\'s called a circular...
like a hand of an hour
i imagine walking around greater london
7 times...
it really is a bogus project...
but it\'s a mad enough
beginning to allow myself to dream...
like in those old movies...
oceans, eleven?
the \'ctor roost and... the professional
boxers... treated as mere cameos on
screen...
so... here\'s my cameo...
i have yet to find such a footed
riddle as i have...
no fuckers from noak hill will tread
these parts...
i\'m sure of it as i am sure:
it\'s not that i\'m a lover of nature...
there\'s no david attenborough
voyeurism involved to produce
a semblance naturalist...
words architecture,
words architecture...
word... ugh... architecture...
words grammar architecture...
it\'s not that it\'s ugly...
it\'s just so well-arrived-at...
it\'s pristine... unshakeable...
words, grammar... architecture...
i want to walk...
to hell with running a marathon
while mr. c.c.t.v. is jerking off
a commitment of transmission...
acorns and oak-fill... lost for words...
chestnuts! chestnuts!
all that is evolved monkey
and devolves back into a bear...
sounds mad enough to \'ave some...
i just like to imagine...
digressing with winter nonexistent...
this parody of insomnia:
whether via work
or via...
one alcoholic vs. one hundred
workaholics...
vs. one thousand bureaucrats...
vs. 4th industrial revolution
staples in the millions...
cost effective \"work\"... and \"effective\":
a work not as: the best
that can be done...
but as a public service loitering...
ahem... sorry... \"provision\"...
have people forgot that
there exist a version
of humanity that somehow
has to be appeased...
that people can perhaps relapse
into their trained-monkey phase
and treat a supermarket
cashier as he or she were
a heart-surgeon...
or are we all so fucking
desperate as to: settle our grievances
on mediocre pyramidal schematics .
tiers invoked... blah blah...
whoopsie: it snows.
grandiosity herr engels: i gather....
but for all that toughening of limbs
and of making concrete assurances:
to borrow bones to somehow delve
into carving marble...
how to turn a gorilla into a weakling
man pursuit...
brain hijacked by a mushroom...
and retell squirm with
a man-beefed-up-bear-in-tow...
it\'s not merely... impossible...
this of the fewest least...
it\'s this rugged tease of
an avalanche...
a stampede...
when in fact... it was merely
a wriggling of a centipede.
demiurge ave!
demiurge ave!
as one probably does...
walking past a curation of budding sex...
she\'s teasing 15...
and she gives off quiverings in
the air...
she\'s so teen...
so prone to angry...
all that she is... is a scent of bubblegum...
she\'s too young to become
complicated with sex...
and sex has become one of those:
metaphors... drawing water from
a stone...
i\'m too tired of wanting what isn\'t readily
available...
in the availability of a harem...
i\'m too tired to want
what i must, most necessarily
never have...
then again... again: i will heave
not having above what i could
perhaps want to heave: rather than have...
all those pornoflicks from
Lesbos: should i be irritated by
phallic tailor-me-pretty...
a kit-kat of fingers usually does
the \"job\"...
yes... my heave: my harth...
my liquid lunge...
my best and therefore by least...
forest of a crown.