because jim dine looks like
jack nicholson from
afar...
but it\'s not about that:
oculus per oculus -
eye for an eye...
when painting is involved
i hardly think it\'s necessary
to give abstract \"grace\"
to necessary objects:
a wonky hammer or a house
is sand and grimace
and all things unbelievable
but it\'s not the strict
schematic...
when painters have to invest
themselves in words...
that frank o\'hara anecdote
about SARDINES...
or if it isn\'t too obvious
as to what will be cited next:
magritte\'s:
ceci n\'est pas une pipe...
well: at least colour is true
as much as a noun is...
here at the zenith
red dictates stopping at a traffic-light
junction...
and there\'s than synonym
of: strawberries...
when painting had become
abstract enough:
words had to become employed:
i\'m still stacking
x-rays and skeletons
with muscular meshes of grey
on the fading with words...
i don\'t bemoan the task:
looking for alternative, \"better\" options
in painting...
i\'ve have to be blind...
that painting is all eye
that poetry is all ear and perhaps
the tongue too...
oculus per oculus: eye for an eye...
i allow myself to drink to excess
tonight,
because what i really want to write
is what i gathered from this
afternoon...
autumnal promenade...
these trees and the sunlight raising
them... to trans-natural realism\'s heights...
it does \'elp to merely take
a stroll...
it\'s beyond comparison:
i dared to think: and if i took a photograph...
no... a photograph would
make me sulk...
i would keep it as something
both horrid and both saddening -
mind you: my memory bank
is running dry and i much prefer
to take photographs with
a blinking of an eye
to expand my memory hoard(ing)...
clearly at this junction
of the near impossible: for something \"new\"...
there is no new...
when there were formerly people...
up in the northern most easterly tip
of greater london
i\'m looking for a \"delusion\"
of being able to walk
several miles without any
human interactions...
well... would a creature such as a grouse
or a deer allow itself being
spotted in daylight hours
if such a place was governed
by a frequency of man?
the deer spotted me not too far off...
by god: i didn\'t give it prance to
a get-go to gallop ever so silently:
by the woodland pigeon did
breaking into flight... rustling leaves
of it perching in a crown...
in love with england: more to the point...
the countryside for the nth time
resounding...
the topology of the english countryside...
it must be a desirable word to use
when i have this picture before me...
there were feet that walked
these \"roads\" and there were eyes
that sorrowed for: the platter of details...
it was never an intended piccadilly circus
bulwark of rape neon...
insomnia neon and incognito -
the middle of this drab
of london bothers me from time to time...
from: time to time...
not in spring not in summer:
now... autumn and these trees
and this sunlight gracing them to an elevation...
i\'ve already chosen anecdotal
points of familiarity...
celebrity trees -
trees like signatures like:
everything else that is also a tree
but is so generic it can\'t stand alone...
it needs a canvas a window or a view...
then those trees that... i swear they are
so: unto themselves that
i wouldn\'t require a mirror to peer
at myself...
sure... upon reaching a pinnacle
of cubism... painting new abstract:
a best a verbiage and forever this extension
of psychoanalysis -
at best this verbiage and...
what is it that they called it:
base: introspection of the self...
well... that\'s already a doubling of
the act...
given there\'s (the) definite article self
given there\'s also \"a\" self...
and then the possession of it:
which is... compounded reflexive
rather than reflective... rarely is it
my self... yourself myself themselves...
hey presto! juggle circus with
the alphabet people...
i didn\'t take a photograph for i didn\'t
want to spoil autumn per se
or my availability of sponge brainz...
i had to excavate these words...
to borrow something from heidegger...
a major pillar ought be cited:
well... hier-sein... hell... expansion...
hier-jetzt-sein:
or rather the most temporal:
jestz-hier and i\'ll leave being in a shallow
grave of grace...
i\'ll concern myself
with... not being a fear-mongering
vegan... when i respect the animal
produce thus presented:
i will not overcook a chicken...
when i insert a thermometer into
a chicken breast it will read
in the range of 165 - 170°F...
i will not become a vegan because:
i fucking well know:
i know blindly i will allow my eyebrows
to be gambled with...
these \"vegans\"...
probably never cooked a chicken
properly...
when a food can be
respected...
when the breasts are juicy...
one, can, be... thankful!
but if you do a second work-around
of a butcher\'s \"quarter\"...
end up eating... protein pasta glue...
no wonder: return to
overcooked vegetables!
i much rather respect a protein...
than fake veganism for
not having respect for it!
omnivores \"anonymous\"!
gaffs of trends of people who...
probably don\'t know how
to cook... i love my... presumptuous...
agony aunt sort of flicker...
of demands...
of: stereotypes...
sometimes these higher-tier
critiques of stereotypes pay off...
they have to.
oculus per oculus...
autumn, these trees and this sunlight...
it has to be temporally specified:
\"circa\" from 12:30pm through to...
4pm... enough time for the weather
to change drastically...
enough time to find an old acorn...
with a ladder attached...
and sit in it... like some long lost
late-starter in the darwinistic narrative
and hide from the onslaught of
rain...
i guess that\'s why i cited heidegger...
but i was meditating
on other words...
oko - eye -
oczy - eyes...
to - this
tamto - that
tam - there...
conjunctions more or less...
and... how i might describe myself...
anglo-saxons were my prior...
so the anglo- prefix sticks...
anglo-slav...
for the general purpose: works...
but saxon is specific...
it\'s not like there\'s a concept
for anglo-thurengians
or anglo-pomeranians...
or anglo-swabians...
a specified germanic tinge
that encompassed
an outline of prior to celtic and
velsh...
anglo... an anglo-wend...
albion-veneti...
well... given that every fucking
two-bothered-sanctum-christi
auxiliary has gathered on these isles...
\"of late\"...
but like a sore thumb:
\"my people\" have
retracted on the tide
so overpowering come
the opening of the floodgates
circa 2004...
moi? earlier immigration...
as early as 1994... n\'ah... anglo-veneti
is no sticking word... anglo-slav...
anywho...
a quadratic: because i just love: squared
t\'inking...
it\'s almost like a magic trick...
two buzzwords...
reigning the niche outlets...
patriarchy! ugh! power wording!
and... gynocentrism!
well... let\'s party!
back to the days of copernicus...
gynocentrism is an elevated
variation of... geocentrism?
which is paradoxical since...
that would implore the vatican to play
it: hush hush...
no! no you idiot!
gynocentrism is heliocentrism!
the all encompassing...
sun vulva!
a cunt that spits out...
lucifer fell head-first...
\"fell\"... bungyjumped and
was tugged back onto
the throne when god had a medley
with a banjo piece of working
out: a cross is never a table?
a cross is never a table?
gynocentrism is... heliocentrism...
and \"the\" patriarchy is geocentrism...
god... i love this quadratic...
i had a cultish idea
today...
among a Pythagorean set
concerning eating beans...
how...
you must uncover your head
when walking under trees...
how you should cover your head
in public... but have to expose
your head beneath trees...
it\'s not unlike the already well established
kippah and the circumcision...
so... what? exactly?
i still hafe mine: doubly mine since
i don\'t vacate a tonsure...
a slap me pretty sort of \"disguise\":
for - covert... monkish brewer... alias:
house of purim...
hafe hafe: a\'v\'eh! mein!
i look across... well... no wonder!
h\'america by no invitation...
those black atlases would be forever
celebrated...
as they should:
but it\'s not like the hebrews
took too lightly concerning
intellectual gymnastics when...
intellectually: you\'d only have
to replica... stalemate...
i too could perfect: plagiarism...
not that i\'m... oh god my qabbalah fetish
and how:
the demiurge is one thing...
i don\'t need to demand more from
the yids themselves:
their god will do... just f\'ah f\'ah fine...
he\'s phonetically ingrained...
my words aaron bricks...
he\'s the cement...
less the grammar... in between...
after all... he... doesn\'t really...
favour them as much...
always putting them to the test
to reclaim the noun israel...
hey... of all the people of the ancient
world... a people that envisioned...
their own god... israel:
wrestling them... testing them...
more or less... keeping up their soul-search
vitality assured...
now i will start to chew chewing gum...
and pretend it\'s everything that
requires / required me the ability
to tie my shoelaces...
oh yes... the god of the yids abhors them...
it\'s not like there was no other
memorable balam...
beside... the one still hanging around
with churches
and south america and tele-evangelicals:
after 2000+ years the question
is beside: are you the son of god...
it\'s more... morphed into...
can i still be a hebrew?
if you can\'t celebrate something
when getting into the nitty-gritty...
je suis! my fucking oddity of ass!
throw that charlie hybrid-dough
into the cauldron and let\'s pray
for fucking bagels! or croissants!
whichever takes your fancy!
that i somehow allow myself a \"revision\"
of writing under the influence
of btih music and miss amber...
the god of the hebrews already prides itself
on a following...
so meticulous that it\'s satisfactory /
savory -
i can\'t be allowed... a nibbling?
seems unfair to procrastinate on the altar
of how easily a moloch or a beelzebub was
sacrificed upon...
whirlwinds of aeons and of chaos:
how there\'s only a certainty within the
confines of space:
the clinal pressure for the eye\'s
critique of autumn...
and the trees therefore basking
in the light of borrowing azure...
these hints of auburn and
commando foliage...
of perpetual green: shying glee
of envy...
i want this orgy of verbiage...
to impress details of fracture
and \"fiction\"...
i want to return to the ancient
vernacular...
for all i want i must not never
hope to conceive as: outright will...
to hell with a freedom
so ill-advised...
in these pastures where old
ergonomics: horses - graze...
i heave a thumb... a fattening
of it... i experience creases best known
to the advent of the corruption of paper...
but i am not using any of it (i.e. paper)...
there was a rabbit... there was a deer...
a grouse...
and as many birds as my fingers
could fathom themselves alone
to suit up to a replica arithmetic...
i wanted to learn enough of
simplicity: but i was never to
be allowed: a finicky teenage phase
of taming a need for replica:
offspring...
i desired to not leave any cul de sacs
of grieving processes...
this hebrew god, though...
antithesis: an-t-fezz...
it looks so much of so differently
from the standards of merely speaking
to peering at...
this language without a clear-cutting
of sounds: dyslexia...
what?!
in a language that doesn\'t allow
orthographic stressors...
and all it has to offer is...
\"idiosyncratic\" spelling?
who could have guessed:
a who-dunnit exterior... purpoise?
purpose?
purr-poise...
i do have to allow myself to stage:
when dub-step was a music
genre was still worth salvaging...
distance... vex\'d... burial...
and that\'s about all i want to hear...
i\'m so adamant in being so therefore
blistered in a gangrene of
politics that has to borrow from...
time immemorial and secure...
it has to translate into a...
you can almost fathom the silence
of horses...
they approvingly nod...
somewhat... and whatnot...
agreeing
to you being a something
and somehwat...
that allows itself to pet
either a cradle of cats
or a brood and leash invoked
sour crease of doggy-dodgings...
it\'s not turd flinging invoked...
it\'s something more sinister...
personal: thereby all the more involved / invoked...
it\'s not Golders Green judaism:
tonsure for a scalp / circumcision for
a fucking kippah: y\'er boot?
in that... yes... i appreciate being seen...
i want to be seen...
but at the same time...
i like quivering in a fancy
of being \"counter-inquisitive\" debased:
outright: anti-...
i appreciate being seen...
replicating modus operandi: esse...
but... when i invoke this most private
made most public of disclosures...
and it... somehow... \"works\"...
i hardly think it\'s necessary
to achieve an omniscient status: quo...
especially when one can encounter,
passibly...
two women... perhaps two dogs...
a park... and on a bench...
a giggle and its most certainly female...
i don\'t want to be \"known\"...
existentially pronounced / prone
having to encompass this \"audience\"..
i desire to be less of what\'s
leftover / made available...
it\'s just a minefield...
i visited the Ypres cemeteries...
the anglo-
lingua rubric...
then these... shallow... deafening...
germanic sorts...
sparrow and robins and wrens would
grace their amassing puncture
of details...
and i would want nothing more...
because i was not anglo-sas
and i didn\'t want to earn
or learn of make oath to such bridging of
sorrows...
the mass graves of the germans
in belgium come the enforced endearment of
memory come...
no more from cabaret volatire escapism!
no... more!
they are so fuckingly posed
to be therefore so poignantly named!
by grave and so therefore by so little
of body!
the mass graves of the: germanic:
peoples:
how the english, once upon a time...
allowed themselves to play a trough
of towing themselves... romanesque!
this: greviaous mud...
this... horrid first pretender!