when i was younger
i used to see couples in films
and the man would win the teddybear
and the woman’s heart would ache
i wish you could make mine ache that way
when i met you
you sold me a different kind of pain
and of course i was conditioned to buy it
i wish the default was different though
the world is spinning on the same narrative
you weren’t even that significant
i’d hardly see you
i don’t even think you were there for me
you were in my thoughts more than
physically
i never really liked your behaviour
treatment like a plague doctor
but my options had limits
and i guess you looked nice
under asteroid lights
do you know that i still wear your coat
im wearing out the black you left
in and around me
it’s not like you destroyed my heart -
just made it ache a little