the jps players make my head cluster
but i take out another to calm my nerves
i’m wearing the rain as skin
to keep me cool enough to move on
but cool isn’t cold
and that might be what i need to cross you out
so i take out another to make me think
help me get my head around the roadside of emotions
but there’s too many diversions and i’m not sure which one to travel
so i take out another as i journey on
and find myself in the same place i see in my dreams - lost.
belonging not even to myself
but to anyone with a pretty face
creating voids of myself for them to devour
and pushing myself to edges of insanity
gaslit into thinking it’s art,
i take out another and revel at my heart
on the cutting room floor of the unknown