Lily_

Solitary

My whole life I always felt like 

I just needed my own space

my thoughts were cluttered with your yelling

I should have seen it in the first place

 

I just needed time to get my head straight

When people ask me how I\'m doing, \"Yes, I\'m Ok\"

that\'s what you\'re supposed to say..

 

I wish I could have conversations with the old me

I wish somebody would have told me

 

You don\'t have to go through their pain

your road is different you\'ll be OK.

Block your ears what they\'re saying isn\'t real

rest your eyes

the exhaustion will make you think unclear 

 

take some time get your head straight

You don\'t have to carry their weight

 

I wish I could have conversations with the old me

I wish somebody would have told me

 

Keep working late, it will be worth it one day

you don\'t have to be home, they can eat on their own

you\'re not their fucking mother anyway.


Catch your breath

find your head space

Trust yourself you\'re going to be ok

 

You\'re allowed to want to be alone

you\'re allowed to tell them no..

In the morning they\'ll pretend to atone

 

but when someone asks you how you\'re doing

you don\'t have to pretend to be OK. 

I wish I could have conversations with the old me

I wish somebody would have told me..