It is time...that I acknowledge this
the moments when I get sad and disappointed
for not getting what I wanted
but everybody around seemed like they do.
I actually went into those situations again
to experience the same thing one more time
and strongly tell myself...that it is not worth it
because I would only be self-sabotaging myself.
However negative a response from the self is,
It is like the other person is still positive or unaffected
but only the self becomes negative due to internal factors
I...I can’t...allow myself to be in a state of ‘Dark Bliss’.
It is like I purposely put myself in that situation again
to test and push myself to fight and break free
because even if it is in front of a mirror,
That State of Negativity is not something that I actually want to see.
- Joker Green