Thelala

Have you ever

Have you ever had so much to say,
That your mouth that clamped up so tight,
Was suddenly so dry,

That your mind that was still whirling,
Making you feel so sick,
Went blank,

Have you ever had so many thoughts,
Swimming around your head at an impossible rate,
That you just wanted to scream and scream,
Until your lungs gave out,

That your thoughts that are so dark,
Are repulsive and frightening,
That you don\'t recognize them as your own,
That they terrifie you so much,
You don\'t dare tell a soul,
For the fear it will make them real,

Have you ever felt so broken,
Even though you felt fine a while ago,
That you can\'t do anything,
You can\'t cope with all the strain,
That you feel there is something wrong,
With everything inside your brain,

Have you ever just want everything to stop,
For everything you are to be numb,
But even the thought of that,
Seems to scare you,

Have you ever been so angry,
That you want to scream at the top of your lungs,
To punch and kick,
To beat Anything and everything,
But you also feel so weak,
That you can\'t even muster a whisper,
That the only thing you could beat is yourself,

Have you ever hurt so much,
That every part of your mind and body,
Feels as though it is locked in a vice,
And someone is tightening it,
It gets tighter and tighter,
Harder and harder to breathe,
You look to see who is doing,
But all you see is you.

Have you ever felt like this?