Jodie

Call Me Crazy

Go ahead and call me crazy
When I look at the clock I feel like it\'s frozen
Cause I live in my head
its like maze but with no end to go
Sometimes I feel like I\'m dead
I\'m tired of living, I cry
I hear it\'s easy to die, I want to see that for myself
I\'m scared of death, I\'m scared of living
And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else
But fuck I\'m depressed and stressed
I Know I\'m losing my mind
I feel like I\'m out of time
You don\'t know what it\'s like living like this
Pretending I\'m happy so I can smile like everyone else
Been stuck like this for a while
It\'s like I\'ve been living in Constance rain
But is just my tears
Why does life hurt so much?
I have to try block out my thoughts so I don’t lose my head
I\'m waging wars on myself every hour
Kicking demons in my mind for every little mistake that I had made
I\'m sad, insecure and flawed
I\'ll be as honest as I feel I\'m getting more paranoid
I\'m so tired of feeling tired I just want to close my eyes
Here come my nightmares, they come out every night
Wish I had answers for the way I felt
I don\'t do this on purpose, I don\'t choose to feel this way
It kills me, because I see everyone else happy
I see my family, my friends
They\'re just so much stronger mentally, than me
Im just cold, depressed and empty inside
If you look into my eyes can you see the happy young girl you knew?.