but nobody cares when i\'m not around
so i\'m left to myself and let myself drown
in all those feelings that\'ll soon fade away
and all that\'s left is my numb shade
and still, then there\'ll be nobody around
just like always, they might think i\'m fine
but the truth is i\'m on the brink of dying
soon there\'ll be no one left for me to keep on trying
oh, i\'ve waited so much time and still not a change
i keep lying to myself \"it\'ll take few more days\"
yet i know deep inside that i\'m on my own
and i crave this odd feeling, the feeling of home
now i see it\'s too much and not meant for all
us who will have to carry on on their own
and you\'d say we got used to it through all those years
yet i, still have hope - is it why my heart breaks?
everything makes me know that\'s all my own fault
my hands turned to blood when i was alone
and my brain still feels like it\'s about to explode
when i am staring at the ceiling
oh how much i hate my thoughts, how much i hate this feeling
the voice inside my drawer called me every night
i had to resist, yet it was so hard
it never brought joy neither relief
but i felt like i deserved it
the tears by my feet