Plagued by the fear of losing you
I tune out the world
I turn the music up loud
And a sea bleeds from my emotionless brain
A swansong of blue regrets
I\'m not happy in my head
I wake up and I don\'t want to get out of bed
Slumped over and depressed
My droopy eyes orbit the room
The love in the dark
Leaving through an open window
Blooming rubble in a destroyed world
I am everyone, wanting to forget you
I spiral into a jealous haze
Addictions keeping me anchored to hate
A careless night identity
I dyed my hair blonde to escape myself
Flaxen in the light of day
Just so no one glanced when I\'d walk down the street
People thinking they\'re better than us
Enchanted and gallant, so clever with words
The math of an orange, the infectious glow
Of the twilight gleaming in your eyes
Fires burning in my wounds
Salty rivers in circles
Moonlit whispers
Embowered in the thorns of time, slipping away
Gracefully eloquent in every sense
I cant look out, I cant look in
I choke at every excuse, every reason
Pathetic under the ceiling
Restless in my longing for my stolen innocence
My boyhood in a wishing well
I had big plans, but now I\'m reliving the years.