If I say goodbye to this world
am I really leaving ?
I’m just so tired of it all
Especially the thieving
People can steal your heart
Watch you as you bleed
take whatever they want
no second thought to what you need
I guess i had it coming
For all the mistakes I made
I hope you know I’m sorry
never intended it to be this way
I struggled each and every day
sleepless nights I lie awake
my mind filled with all these thoughts
would pray for them to go away
Oh god if your listening
god can you hear me
free me from this pain
take me to heaven make this easy
I was hoping he would listen
Hoped my wish would come true
but instead all I see are grey skies
Instead of seeing sky blues
they always say keep that head up
things will get better
I tried to believe it many times
even with change of weather
Couldn’t quite be consistent
Never had consecutive days
Where I would smile and think
How lucky am I to be alive today
Tried to hold onto the good
tried to let go of the bad
But it always pulled me back in
reminds me of what I used to have
And what I had is what I lost
It’s no ones fault but my own
I could sit here and lie
But is there really any point anymore
I wish I could take it back
shake myself out of it if I could
What the hell was I thinking
You were always nothing but good
maybe that was the problem
You being the angel of mine
Self sabotage was always my thing
I guess I’m just a devil in disguise
It’s something that weighs on me heavy
you’ll never know how much my heart breaks
my shoulders are almost finished
Don’t know how much more I can take
my heart is on low
it’s startling to come apart
You the beauty Me the beast
Those roses pedals falling in the dark
if I could tell you I love you
And see your face again
I’d tell you everything
how you were my best friend
That I’ll always be with you
And you shouldn’t blame yourself
please don’t break down
Don’t keep your heart on the shelf
Just remember one thing
and that is even if we are not together
That even after this life
It’ll always be forever