Arvy

In peace, Forever

The arms of the ocean are wide open to welcome me

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I see the ocean excited, I see it smiling at me, I hear it calling me

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The sky sleeps but the ocean never does, always awake, waiting, for me

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I see it full of others who went before me , but my place is reserved, just for me

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But i’m standing still, it’s hard to move , it’s hard to see, it’s too dark, it’s too bright, way too cold, and way too hot

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I’m standing alone, I feel alone but I’m not, I know that I’m not, but can’t see anyone, can’t feel anyone

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I lose the sensation just moments from touching anything, I cry, I hold my head low, I can’t look them in the eye, I feel ashamed, can’t fight it, they ask me to but I just can’t, impossible, I cry, I ache, I lie , I sleep, I wake , I eat, I think, I stop

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I wanna fly up really high, never land, never land, never land

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I want to hold a hand, I want to hear a whisper, I want to smile, I want to kiss, I want to feel, I wan t to breath, and I want to sleep, in peace, forever

© Arvy

Aug 2021