Lily_

Please

I stare at the ceiling

While I avoid feeling

And the wolves stop

their howl at the moon

I thought I could grasp it

But I become manic

When time stops

and the thoughts intrude

My eyes to the ocean

When I feel emotion

But I won’t sip from the

Silver spoon

I think maybe I’m desperate or manic depressive

or maybe I need someone

…or maybe not

But please-

Just give me something for the pain

Because in my mind it always rains

And when I’m all alone

I come undone

And when I’m all alone

How come I’m weak?

So I skip rocks and I write dreams

But I can’t smile and I can’t sleep

I need someone to help me up.

I need someone to wake me up.

I remember that evening

When you showed me how to stop feeling

Now I fill my heart up, with nothing from no one.

So I just keep laughing

Even though it’s so graphic

At the metaphor that I’ve become.

Two minutes of emotion

Four hours of frozen

In fear I’ll lose who I once was

I think maybe I’m obsessive or being taught a lesson,

or maybe I need someone

…or maybe not

But please-

Just give me something for the pain

Because I can’t break free from your reign

And when I’m all alone

I come undone

And when I’m all alone

How come I’m weak?

So I sit quiet and I don’t speak,

Because I can’t breath and I can’t scream

I need someone to help me up.

I need someone to wake me up.

And I want you,

Oh my God-

I want you

To see me in this state

And I want to

fill your sleep

and haunt you

So you can feel the mess you’ve made.

But all my dreams are no use

When I am wide awake.