Thinking to myself \"I can\'t take this anymore\",
Sitting here and looking at an open door.
With an open door I have also open arms,
This loneliness I feel is setting off alarms.
Bells are ringing loudly in this little head,
Trying to rest as I lie here in my bed.
Siblings have I not over now two years,
My blue/gray eyes drained of all its\' tears.
They are all gone as are Daughter and a Son,
My heart once full now emptiness begun.
Parents both now gone Husband is as well,
Swollen heart deflated burning me like Hell.
Generous to a fault plus caring that I be,
I still not am seeing the other side of me.
Know not the reason of this happenstance,
Forward I go not a backward glance.
Avoiding hurdles stacked along the way,
Ducking branches keeping harm at bay.
Rainbow ahead and rain is in my face,
Luck may be ahead better keep the pace.
Tripped by stones and skinning of my shin,
Is this a race that I possibly can\'t win?
I set examples you from under wing,
My deflated Heart the target of the sting.
Tell me the reason for this insanity,
Am I blind or what is not I see?
I must stop this reflecting that I do,
Seek an answer maybe from one clue.
No, No, NO - leave it all alone,
End and beginning facing me like stone.