Heart of Babel

[ Bloom ]

Sometimes in my mind

I think I’m just to shy to thrive

While this pen can pour its heart

My mouth is kept with no reply

I can’t deny, I want to fly

If I would only spread these wings

Lift off the ground, into the sky

To see what these horizons bring

 

This spark of life, shining so bright

I have hidden in concerns

Anxious thoughts, all I’ve fought

And I still choose not to adjourn

Yet I discern, knowing well

This absurdity to fault

That I would dwell within a hell

Rather than be what I exalt

 

Still invasive, second nature

Doppelgänger, all my doubts

Who am I really, but a stranger

Lost to self, with no account

Light is shining, close the curtains

Cannot let these feeling out

Trapped inside this vaulted-coffin

Yet there is life that seeks to sprout

 

Finding the cracks, pushing forward

Looking to break from this recourse

Hearts been strangled, barely beating

Only hope, is now divorce

Severed ties, these leach of lies

That have been sucking out my soul

Withering binds, it’s now the time

Time to finally let these seeds grow

 

Fear of exposure, slowly fading

Yet still hesitant to bloom

To be shown naked, on display

As I am rising from this tomb

Thoughts of chaos, like a seance

Seeking to keep me in these chains

Yet bonds have weakened in this Eden

And I will never be the same

 

Mind is altered as I falter

Trying to grasp all that has changed

While memories of ancient terrors

They have yet to be estranged

So yet I walk in double standards

Slowly departing from the grave

Tricks in mind, still seem to coax me

That I should just remain a slave

 

But I am saved, despite my toils

Despite the doubts that creep in mind

No longer gaining my attention

No distraction to keep me blind

Look in the mirror, eyes are searching

To find a fault in what I see

Grace resounding, in abundance

Nothing but radiance in me

 

This pen is pouring out its soul

A reflection of the heart

Of the strength that I should carry

To match this magnitude of spark

I know I struggle, being open

Just to manifest the light

And yet my spirit, always hopeful

Chose to bloom within this life

 

© HeartOfBabel