I don’t even know where to begin
Should I start at the end or begin at the beginning
I am lost, I have lost myself as a person
I have lost the boy I was, the one who was always happy
I miss him, he isn’t the same anymore
I need to change but I don’t know where the change at
I got to change but then I have lost faith
Always taking loses asking myself when I am going to gain
I be going through the same problem again and again
I was once happy but all of that have turned into pain
I once had a heart, then decided to give it to my special one
Without knowing what the future had in hand, I got it back in pieces
He once had love, hope, trust, but now he left with none
He used to believe but now he asks himself who to believe in
I was dumb, stupid, childish, yes, I admit it, but the pain I didn’t deserve it
You should have left me burn in hell, but you saved me to put me back there
I did you wrong and I’m accountable of that,
But to hurt me the way you did I don’t deserve that
Where my heart used to be, it’s a hole full of blood that has even dried up
My heart was pumping blood it was red but it not working anymore blood turned black
I should have listened to my instincts but then I still had hope to fix us before we got too far
I don’t mean to hurt you with these words I’m not trying to take you back
I was up all night with the brothers busy scratching my back
I’m the one who started all this girl I admit it my bad
Reminiscing when we started, they all envied us you know since way back
We all make mistakes, I asked for your forgiveness you granted me I was grateful
It was still too early I celebrated I wish you could have seen me I was joyful
Without knowing it was all a trap you got me to my comforts to plant a bomb on me
I never saw that one coming, day and night thinking I was crying no one to speak to
Started abusing drugs trying to numb the pain but I couldn’t stop feeling you