I reread each text texted when you were texting her
My hand trembles and I look in the mirror
And it\'s
that feeling when your body is rocking and you erupt
and it
seems like everything around you
is draining
I wish to melt into this room touching every crevice, licked upon
every corner
So when you come here to apologize
I trap you inside, like when I was eight and forced bees into jars
(They always suffocated)
And in a tightly woven, claustrophobic grin
you kiss me
A second
And you kiss me again
All of a sudden I\'m shaking
Reborn and scared
Frozen, pale behind the blade of the door
Everything you wanted me to be