Mariel Ilagan

I\'m okay

I\'m okay 
Until I\'m not
I\'d be smiling
Until my demons
Smile back 
Alone again
In an empty space
The void lingers
And it\'s twice as big
Sadness and grief
Smothering me
I cannot breathe
I can\'t control it
Fears and doubts 
Keep creeping out
One more setback
I\'m going to lose it
What is it like
To be really okay
I don\'t want to die
But I don\'t want to live like this