feel it all yet I feel nothin
dive into a substance so I can be numb to anything that touches
I’m the canvas to her fingers brushin
even when we fuckin my head only focused on my thoughts rushin
in her eyes I see lovin, face blushin
she catch my vibe and tries to bring me back to a level function
But I’m corrupted to a place beyond repair
In my soul she glare it ain’t fair there’s nothin there but the return of a blank stare
My blood ain’t pumpin warm it’s colder than winter air
Heart frozen I’m pokin at the idea loneliness is my cross to bear
Funny thing I prefer that term which is solely rare
To say I don’t care, is only a lie
Won’t deny I want a chick that’s ride or die
But to force the try is only being insecure in disguise
Till then I won’t pretend till the universe sends a woman who can revive me till I’m alive