My guard is up
I make a \"friend\"
Okay \"sure\"
Someone wants to be friends with \"me\"
No, I don\'t even want to be friends with me
Okay, a friend you seem
Friendly
Answer every call, every text
\"I love you\"
\"You\'re awesome\", \"amazing\", \"beautiful\"
I\'m not
I know I\'m not
Slowly I drop my guard
I have a friend
You\'re so nice
Is this what it\'s like to have a friend?
Slowly you fade
Stop answering calls, responding to texts
You\'re busy perhaps
Your life got crazy
No
You still answer
Just not to me
New friends
As I fade
They will too one day
I\'ve dropped my guard
I let myself hurt
Now you answer
\"Life was crazy\" you say
\"I\'m sorry\" you say
I\'m working on rebuilding my wall
It\'s still fragile
I believe you
You\'re being so nice
So trusting
Like the you I always knew
Then it happens again
I didn\'t finish building my wall so it easily fell
You didn\'t need to destroy it
I let it fall
I let my wall fall and now I\'m defenseless
My raw heart hurting
I let this happen
\"Friend\"
Sure
I don\'t have friends
I won\'t have friends
I\'m not even my own friend
Maybe I\'m wrong
Maybe it\'s me
Friend?
I don\'t know anymore