I knew for a long time
That being me just wasn’t good enough
And despite that hopelessness
I still tried to give the fullest love
Because love is my nature
It’s the person that I am
So when Love wasn’t returned
I was left with the command
Efforts for acceptance
And I knew it was perverse
But I tried to bury self
To bare the burden of this curse
So my children wouldn’t see
Wouldn’t have to know this hurt
Take a breath but never breathe
Suffocating without worth
Was the action right
Was there any hope
Could I overcome the obstacles
Ignoring the true scope
To pretend things would get better
While having no means which to cope
Trying to climb to the peak
Upon a slippery slope
Destined to fail
For the hearts weren’t in alignment
One sought other’s attention
While the other one lay blinded
The dial of the sands
Set a desert to the climate
And scorching was the land
As love had fallen silent
For there’s no hope without love
So I took the wounded fragments
The exposure of my heart
Now barely beating, latent
I had trusted beyond reason
Never doubted in relation
And then truth tore me to pieces
That love was long since vacant
Arising from a patient
This wouldn’t be my death
I would not be seen as victim
Held down by my regret
For the sun ceased not in rising
And I would not forget
That the nature of my love
Does not exist within neglect
The nature of love
It is extravagant indeed
It is the only thing in life
Without a foundation of need
Without dependence of another
Without demanding of a deed
Surreal to all existence
And in me it’s planted seed
And every day I’m growing
Found healing from the past
Because love keeps my attention
And it keeps me right on track
For no matter how painful
There’s no need for looking back
With love, a light of hope
That illuminates my path
© GaratheDen
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