Bit by bit the ground is crumbling beneath
my feet
Consequences digging in the truth
They bury me
Stop, my heart is burning out
Can’t say a word
There’s a secret and it hurts
I’ll rake my fingernails through the damp
earth beneath
Dig until I’m surrounded by the daunting
plague of thoughts that warped me in
There’s not much room for air down here
and with each breath I can taste the
copper burning on the surface of my
tongue
Hot and sizzling as I struggle to withhold
another lie
In a way it mimics the same feeling of
being paralyzed in a terrible dream
Only this is not something one can
escape from with an abrupt flutter of your
eyes
I’m afraid that in order for me to get better
I’ll have to unlock the door to one of the
darkest rooms in my life
And I won’t have to enter or stare
Just knowing there’s a crack in the door or
that there’s no lock holding it in place
Is enough to make me feel like I’ll never be
able to leave
I’ll open that door and be claimed by the
slinking shadows scattering to make room
for me
I imagine it’ll feel like tripping and falling
into quicksand
You know you have to get out
But the more you try
The more you fail
And when you fail you realize that you’re
now forced to accept all the things you’ve
been running from all your life
Just you,
that screaming dark room,
and your own misery