Lost in Translation
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Most of the time I was very careful with my voice.
Analyzing choice of words like they held the secrets of the universe, or could trigger Hiroshima like devastation.
Yet to you
I speak..
..A lot
Often It is as if the words convert to a forgotten language somewhere between my lips and your ears.
Like they have lost their way.
Pictures on cave walls open to interpretation, never quite correctly decoded.
I am blue in the face, Foolishly wasting breath.
I study your facial expressions desperate for a sign of understanding.
But, There is none.
I keep rasing my voice louder repeating what I believe to be a simple communication.
I am not okay
I am not okay
I AM NOT OKAY!
like perhaps it is not that you dont understand me.
Maybe you just CANT HEAR ME!!
My screams had the reverse effect
So I resorted to silence.
And when I did
we never spoke again....
Now I sit staring at glazed over eyes void of anything but my own reflection.
Which is funny..
Because I am the only thing that has ever really been consistent.
Years of searching to find nothing is untouched by time.
And, There I am again.
Just me.
Consistantly
Lost in translation.
-B-