Ajax (he/xe)

Tired

I\'m tired

I\'m tired of not understanding

I\'m tired of hiding all this

I\'m tired of moving

I\'m tired of self harm

I\'m tired of not eating

I\'m tired of life

So why do I keep living? 

Cause I\'m too scared to die

Why do I not eat? 

So I\'m not seen as fat

Why do I keep self harming?

To stay in control

Why do I keep moving? 

So others question nothing

Why do I hide it all?

To not become a bother

Why can\'t I understand?

That I do not know.